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Crushed Petals of Love

October 7, 2009 Alice 14 comments

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The petals crush underneath her feet,

Brings memories that are too hard to defeat

 

The crown of thorns entangle her tresses,

Amidst the thoughts the Chosen One blesses

 

Hail, my angel! And sleep through the war,

But have mercy and don’t wake up to be the whore

 

For she will enter the abyss of your pure soul,

Leaving you with nothing but a black hole

 

Sunlit smiles will be your timeless foes,

As there lie crushed petals of love under your toes

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September 18, 2009 Alice 9 comments

 

“Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.”

The Möbius strip called life…

August 31, 2009 Alice Leave a comment
Been running a marathon,
on this road called life.
Been running for a while now,
yet there was no end in site.
An invention got on my way once
saw this satellite device.
Wohoo I could see myself from above
but – hey – look – what the heck
it’s a Möbius strip I was running on

Been running a marathon,

on this road called life.

Been running for a while now,

yet there was no end in sight.

An invention got on my way once

saw this satellite device.

Wohoo I could see myself from above

but – hey – look – what the heck!

it’s a Möbius strip I was running on

(Inspired by logic behind the Möbius strip :D )

This one’s for you…

August 15, 2009 Alice 8 comments

You make me

Dream about you

All the time

Day dreaming

Vivid scenes

Opening my eyes

With a broad smile…

Everything that

You have said

Is all coming back…

In a different light,

Every funny moment spent

Still reverberates a smile…

I wish I could

Drift away

Permanently in my

Real world of dreams,

Away from

This real world

Where I can’t reach you

I can’t feel a thing.

To a place that is unknown

To a place where we can be born

Again

As lovers

As friends

And

As soulmates

You…

April 29, 2009 Alice 6 comments

You stand alone, in the humid place and enchant yourself. A droplet of sweat runs down your neck… And suddenly the cool breeze combs through your hair… a sweet musky scent it carries… it caresses your face…You are thankful, you are obliged, you are overwhelmed, you are blessed. Although you don’t remember when it came and how it died…

But for the breeze, I know, she traveled many miles… just to touch you and feel you… now she takes along your fragrance; like the bittersweet memory of a long lost lover, wherever she goes… she will be bubbling with glee and happiness of having met you… She tells every new face she meets, that she touched you… and your scent to her bosom she keeps…

She does know, that she’ll soon have to die… but she doesn’t regret; for she holds you close, as she loved you the most… And every time she takes a new form, she’ll come to meet you, as the wind, the rain, the sand, the fire, the ash, the smoke or the froth… She’ll touch you, love you and will bury herself dead and be born again, knowing that her only purpose of life was and is… YOU…

Letters to Miko…

April 14, 2009 Alice 6 comments

Dear Miko,

I suppose you’ll never get the chance to read this, and maybe I will never get to even tell you that inspite of the slight nature of our acquaintance, you have in some strange way touched my heart. I really do not know what first drew me to you, I suppose I have always been attracted to eccentric people and you have been just that, the little that we know of you. I liked that you love to walk, that you are tall and lanky, and a little weird, quiet and withdrawn, maybe shy, and so very proper and polite. You inspired me to read a little more, work a little harder on my English; listen to that extra bit of music, love my Ipod even more, read up a little more on the sixties and the seventies and so on. I loved that you made me listen to Harry Belafonte, Miles and told me about the bands, Bread and Cream. I love The Bread, by the way.

Life on a trip revolves around some very simple things for me. I wish I could tear you away from the humdrum of class, professors and friends and take you to Marine Drive once again to watch the sun set a few more times. I have always thought it a miracle that the sun would set the same time for ever and ever. I want to steal a little bit of that beauty and keep it in my heart. It is like tearing a small piece of bread from a loaf when you are hungry, there maybe many more loaves but this one particular one would always have that one bite off it. I suppose I make little sense.

I had this dream the other night, where we sat side by side facing an “electric blue” river and what seemed like the ruins of Guatemala, and certain specimens of big horned deer who miraculously changed to people right before my eyes. When this happened you just put your arm around my waist and pulled me close and kissed me gently on my cheek and softly said: what a dangerous t-shirt… ! (referring to the people I thought were deer but were actually dressed in some sort of costume possibly) All this was very nice and I felt extraordinarily close to you. For a long time after I woke I shut my mind to the clutter of the outside world and hugged onto my dream like a precious secret till slowly its sensuality began to wane.

I don’t know what this year holds for me, but of all the things that I dearly wish for, I would certainly like to wish to get to know you a little better, spend some more time with you and maybe, even get a chance to call you this – “Miko”.

Love,
A

Well…Well…

April 6, 2009 Alice 17 comments

Something that I had read sometime back…

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you’re doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends… maybe it will help someone feel like they aren’t alone in their state of confusion…

We call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.”

Letters…

April 2, 2009 Alice 11 comments

Dear Homeless Man,

I hope your tap-dancing lessons are going well! I found out today that you have a twin brother, who looks exactly like you. Does he have the same Nike Shoes as you? If so, I think I may always think you are the same person. Sorry for the confusion, no wonder you looked at me like I was the crazy one when I asked you if you ever got a new oar.

I saw you and your brother fighting today. It saddened me deeply – families are the most important people in your life. Perhaps you were fighting over a female? Trust me, that bong woman who yells at people on patios and tries to grab their food is not worth a family feud.

Sure, if she stopped doing the crack and brushed her hair a little she could be pretty. If she ate something she could even be quite lovely but I’m sure there are more ladies for you two to deal with? I thought I’d let you know that that new wave you are doing with your hair? Very Donald-Trumpesque! Dress for success they say!

Kudo! :)

Alice

Kindle This Hearts Dying Flame…

February 16, 2009 Alice 19 comments

Wandering through the darkness
searching for a source of light
walking alone through this desolate land
a land that some call life
I need to find a fire
to kindle this hearts dying flame
someone to Search inside
someone who can stand to see the pain

Chorus: So save me from myself…
And I will give you all of me
Give me a little of yourself
And I will love you endlessly

Don’t be afraid of the shadows
I have been lost in it for so long
After awhile they’re comforting
After all the feeling is gone
Give to me your hand and lead me to the light
Take me from the darkness
Help me regain my sight

I know it’s a lot to ask
and I have not much to give
All I have is love
and the rest of this life to live

Chorus: So save me from myself…
And I will give you all of me
Give me a little of yourself
and I will love you endlessly

Waiting for better days…

January 27, 2009 Alice 26 comments

It can only get better” they say tritely
“Next year will be different”
“Things have to start looking up for you”

Every year I go through these bouts. These periods where my mind can’t stop thinking negatively. I want to curl in a ball on my couch and never leave the house. I don’t eat all day or I eat everything I can grab. I feel like crying but my eyes are selfish and hold the tears to themselves.

I wear pajamas from the moment I walk in the door and find excuses not to answer my phone. I watch TV but don’t really see anything. I can’t sleep so I try reading, I try sleeping pills, I try a bath. I try tea, I try writing, I try lying in bed thinking of nothing and everything. I try imagining somewhere hot, and listening to waves on a beach.

I am awake but my mind is confused. How did I end up here? Like this? Lonely, sad, unable to express myself and not understanding what it is that has brought me down so low. Some nights I might go have a drink at my very own Cheers with friends but this is a temporary distraction.

I wander around the museum for hours, wishing I could disappear into the paintings, into the sculptures and be a part of history instead of making my own. I wander around the library even longer – until the librarian announces the imminent closing – picking up books and flipping through the pages.

I read comedic memoirs which remind me all too well how mine would suffer in comparison. I read serious books about war and crimes against humanity. They say misery loves company. I read books about love, about pain, about reality. Sometimes I read a book so densely and intricately worded I have to reread paragraphs three times just to understand what is happening. These are my favorite of all; they take up the most time.

Once the cold goes away, once the grass returns, once the sun again has the starring role and not just a cameo, I’ll be okay. But for now, for now I’ll sit waiting.

His Story… *sigh!

December 26, 2008 Alice 8 comments

He’s not gay. He’s not an alien. He’s not… single. That’s right. He has a girlfriend. And the worst kind at that- a long-distance one. I couldn’t believe it when I first heard, or rather, overheard. He was on the phone with her, on the steps of my favourite café. It had to be his girlfriend. He was telling her to take leave in March when he’s taking it so they could go together. Anyway, they’d hardly meet till then. Who else would he say all that to? Not to his mother. He doesn’t have a sister, and that’s not the tone you use with friends.

I really should have seen this coming. If I like a guy, he must have a girlfriend stashed away somewhere. If not, he’ll get one. I might as well market this as a service and make some money of it. I just can’t believe he’s managed to hide it for so long. And why? I understand being private about your private life, I mean, who’d understand better? But to not even mention she exists?

From the sound of it, she stays in US and they’re quite serious. How can you be seriously involved with someone who stays that far away? How can you pretend that that someone is no one to you? Am I making any sense? (It was a rhetorical question.) I don’t know how I’d feel about my boyfriend pretending I don’t exist especially if we’re serious about each other. Or maybe he’s not that serious about her and is just trapped in a bad relationship. But then why would he want to meet her? To break up? If he can wait that long for that, then he can’t possibly be interested in anyone else right now (read: me)

I’m highly disgusted with myself and his girlfriend. If you’ve hooked a guy, you stay with him. You don’t dangle him like bait in front of other women, just to make them feel bad. It’s just mean. Of course, this makes him even more desirable or less so. More if he’s managed to …er…. stay faithful across the seas, less if he hasn’t. Since I don’t know which is true, I will assume the latter. It makes him look worse, which makes me feel better. How the mighty have fallen.

My life is forever riddled with drama. Not that I’m complaining… This can’t be the end though. As they say, everything’s alright in the end, and if it’s not alright then its not the end…

So I guess, the wait for things to be alright continues as I get back to my work…

As we wait…

December 26, 2008 Alice 1 comment

Cooler December days are here and to make sure that we don’t miss the winter because we’re cooped up in office, the admin people have decided to turn the air conditioner way up or reduce it at their will (the reason given to all of us is ‘Recession’ ). The unhappy result of this is that my cold is showing no signs of retreating, which might have something to do with a recent spell of gorging on ice-cream. Have to keep reminding myself it’s not food.

Things with my handsome stranger are at status quo, or at an even keel (I tried to resist saying that). I guess it doesn’t matter where they are anyway. I don’t think I’d be able to settle for anything less than I want in life, and love. And if I were to be with him, I would always be waiting for the real thing to come along, and that’s not fair to him. I know things will work out soon enough. Sadly, soon enough is never soon enough.

Have just heard the most farcical excuse for not releasing some work I’ve done- it’s too good in the circumstances. Of all unacceptable things I’ve heard recently, this one tops the list. Other items include- you’re nice, in a very weird way; it’s looking okay; and I think you’ve put on enough weight. Needless to say, it’s been a good past few days. On a less sarcastic note, it has been a good past few days. Have been a happy hippo (oh, what the hell, who cares?).

The winter is making it harder than ever to not have someone to cozy up to when there’s a chill in the air and a shiver runs up my spine. It’s also becoming more difficult to remember the distance I must keep in some relationships (if they can be called so yet). I long for warmth in my life, the kind that comes with people who care about you too much to not overlook your faults. It would be so nice to have some friends around. Someone who would listen, understand and not judge. Am I being too demanding? Is being demanding so bad? How can it wreck your personal life?

To find out more, tune in to the next post in a few days by Dr. Alice, our life management expert.

:)

Love is in the air… !

December 23, 2008 Alice 13 comments

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I think it’s time I stopped philosophising and started living so from now on, I am going to make a dedicated effort (trying to keep a straight face…) to just vent. I’ve been going through incredible mood swings (no, it’s not cuz of those male chauvinist pigs) for the past week. It’s led to my being either extremely sensitive and unhappy or extremely positive and happy. Right now, I’m just incredibly sleepy.

I’m also trying to figure out if I am indeed in love with *ahem* him. Here are the symptoms that make me suspect that Cupid has struck again:

• A tendency to stare at him
• Smiling more when he’s around, though not without reason (I’m not an absolute idiot.)
• Wanting to hug and kiss and do other stuff at him at times…
• …quite often
• Treating every direct comment to me as a declaration of his undying though latent love
• Feeling like he’s pining away for me every time he looks at me
• Wanting to do unholy things (not the sexual kind, you pervert!) to the women he flirts with
• Actually believing that we getting together will not make things awkward in our lives.

I’m hoping that this time it’s terminal. I’m getting a little embarrassed by Cupid’s fickle behaviour. Have had to resort to baring my heart on the World Wide Web, as my friends no longer take me seriously and think that I am too blithe to be ever understood or taken seriously…!

Tragedy, thy name is…!

*Sigh!

My last laugh…

December 19, 2008 Alice 20 comments

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I am so befuddled right now with the turn of events…

I feel that somewhere there is no looking back and I have to take the plunge and see what happens…

The sea seems cerulean and crystal clear but I also know that it’s terrifyingly deep…

I walk on the shoreline… contemplating my move and as I try to find answers, I see the sun kissing the salty sapphire waves…

I wonder that will I be as comfortable as the almighty sun?

Will I submerge my spirit and then bounce back again the next day?

Questions kill me… confuse me… humour me… amuse me…

Here I wait on the realms of your kingdom and stare at those mighty mammoths splashing water and bringing it back to life…

Will I be as happy and as free as they are?

What if you capture me? What if you cage me and make me your slave?

Am I ready for that?

As I ponder, you come on your blue Grey chariot and swish me away on your mighty fins… without waiting for my answer…

Somewhere you take my wait as a retort and don’t hesitate to take me away…

Our eyes lock… our paths have crossed and the world stands still… waiting for that solitary move… waiting for the ballet to start…

And your eyes give me that smile… a smile that has wooed a millions hearts and has broken many more…

You clasp my chin with arrogance and force me to peer into your cobalt eyes…there I see those indigo stones which I had always desired in my dreams…

As I look at you, I melt… melt till I am a lucid form of life and learn to transcend time and look beyond the obvious…

You give me a victorious laugh… for you know that you have my soul in your clutches….

I surrender my soul to you till I take my last breath…

And I finally have my last laugh…

I don’t expect…

December 18, 2008 Alice 6 comments

I don’t expect you to smile at me…
For I know your world will fall apart…

I don’t expect you to think about me…
For I know that you will love me more…

I don’t expect you to dream about me…
For I know you don’t want it to come true…

I don’t expect you to recognize me…
For I know you don’t want to see your replica…

I don’t expect you to love me…
For I know it will end your existence…

If I could be your inspiration…

December 18, 2008 Alice 9 comments

If I could be your inspiration
I would kiss the glorious sunsets when I first see your smile…
If I could be your inspiration
I would teach you to crawl and walk with you for awhile…

If I could be your inspiration
I would beam at those cuddly teddies hanging on your crib…
If I could be your inspiration
I would cry with you whenever you break your pencil nib…

If I could be your inspiration
I would sing those endless nursery rhymes with you…
If I could be your inspiration
I would tell you the fairytales which are so not true…

If I could be your inspiration
I would give you a hi-fi whenever you make those clay dogs…
If I could be your inspiration
I would smile when mess your pink bib whenever you hog…

If I could be your inspiration
I would tell you the secrets that no one else will…
If I could be your inspiration
I would stay awake and wait for you at the window sill…

If I could be your inspiration
I would wipe your tears whenever he breaks your heart…
If I could be your inspiration
I would lecture you on how to make a fresh start…

If I could be your inspiration
I would dream with you and see it come true…
If I could be your inspiration
I would bid my adieu only after you say, ‘I do’…

The handome stranger…

December 17, 2008 Alice 10 comments

I saw his handsome silhouette walking down the muddy road…
His sexy back facing towards my humble abode…

For a second I thought he would turn and acknowledge my presence…
But he walked and walked till I started feeling his absence…

Something in my heart said that he knew I was watching him…
But he didn’t turn and my tears came up to the brim…

As he deliberately didn’t see and give me that one last look…
My heavens split apart and my earth started to shook…

Call it his ego or the deep dark voice of his soul…
None listened to my silent screams as they went untold…

I wept on that lonely street and swore to the heavens above…
That I will never take his name again and took my last vow…

Those flashes of his smile kept haunting my night…
All I wanted was to hold him without a fright…

Those eyes that bore into me and showed me the spiral staircase of his life…
In them I saw my stars and hoped that he would ask me to be his wife…

But the dirty destiny had other plans in store…
And I wept and begged for him to stay back for some more…

Life is a bitch and now I surely know why…
For it took away my grass and left me to die…

Today the holes in my eyes are a mirror to my life…
And here I weep and end it with his jaded knife…

Alcoholic Anomalies

December 16, 2008 Alice 17 comments

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Ah...a dream...! :D

Hope inspired me to write this post and I am grateful to her for reminding me about my uselessness. Well this is that much awaited post… today I have realized that I am discovering things that were hidden away in the closet of my brain since quite sometime…. like Ayn Rand, Shakespeare and now it has to be alcohol….

Well I am not the typical girly vodka drinker… infact I love whiskey, beer and wine the most… and I would do anything to have a sip of my favourite wine right now… grrr… call it boredom at work…! Phew!

Well here it goes….

• Whenever I am drinking with Cupid and my other friends, I tend to start laughing without any rhyme or reason and in no time I am rolling on the floor (literally..!)
• I tend to go online and I try to find my elf name and then keep rolling in laughter all the more
• I pretend to cook and my friends pretend to eat what I have cooked!
• I start counting the stars
• I run around in circles and behave I am running in Olympics
• I start writing some random ad campaign and start pretending that I am the next Leo Burnett or Ogilvy in making (I wish…!)
• I start drinking more water and then like everyone else, I keep going to the loo without any rhyme or reason… once I was found sleeping in the loo… actually I wasn’t sleeping… I had just passed out… thanks to those excess whiskey rampages that I went on…
• Once I had started singing on the top of my voice and in no time the donkeys were also braying along with me….!
• I started giving advices on people’s careers and start having heated debates on various topics of economics, law, current affairs and metaphysics… in short I make a complete ass of myself as I was nothing but the butt of every joke…
• I suddenly start adoring someone around me….I start uttering lines from various Shakespearean sonnets, pluck wild flowers and pull that person to dance with me around the trees (sometimes I think I have just tore the screen and come from some rundown Hollywood flick…!) all in all, I embarrass whoever the girl (!) or the guy is…
• I feel like swimming and I make a huge ruckus if I don’t get a chance to swim…! My friends actually run helter-skelter whenever I get those bouts of swimming…
• I pretend that I am not drunk and force people to give me more alcohol… and then fall flat on my face when I am unable to take more of it…
• I start to dance… (How could I forget that!!!?) And people around me get the heebie-jeebies as I tend to start dancing around them and force them to dance as well… I threaten to kill myself if they don’t dance with me….err… and at the end, we are a bunch of idiots who are dancing the night away…!
• If I happen to like a song during those liquid moments (!) then the song HAS to be played on loop till I don’t pass out… to cut a long story short I end up boring people and make them feel useless about their existence…!

But but but… I am always the heart of the party… for I surely know how to entertain my fellow mad-hatters with my randomly nonsensical antics… :mrgreen:

Shakespearingly….!!!

December 16, 2008 Alice 1 comment

One of my favourite lines of Shakespeare.*sigh!

Love is a smoke raised with the fume of sighs,
Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers’ eyes,
Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers’ tears.
What is it else? A madness most discreet,
A choking gall and a preserving sweet.

The speech that shook me…

December 16, 2008 Alice 14 comments

Words fail me right now….I just realized that I have not written a single post on Ayn Rand… a person who represents whatever I am and whatever I believe in… sheeesh…!!!

Let me start off with this speech with Howard Roark made in Fountainhead. Its been ages since I have read this book but this speech still gives me goosies all over whenever I think of it… such power and such enigma should never surface from the book and come to me in real life…for I know that I will leave everything….ruin my existence and go after the man who represents Howard Roark… its impossible but its true….go read Fountainhead…its a must for everyone who believe in individualism and free existence….

Thousands of years ago, the first man discovered how to make fire. He was probably burned at the stake he had taught his brothers to light, but he left them a gift they had not conceived, and he lifted darkness off the earth.

Throughout the centuries, there were men who took first steps down new roads, armed with nothing but their own vision. The great creators — the thinkers, the artists, the scientists, the inventors — stood alone against the men of their time. Every new thought was opposed; every new invention was denounced. But the men of unborrowed vision went ahead. They fought, they suffered, and they paid. But they won.

No creator was prompted by a desire to please his brothers. His brothers hated the gift he offered.

His truth was his only motive.

His work was his only goal.

His work — not those who used it.

His creation — not the benefits others derived from it — the creation which gave form to his truth.

He held his truth above all things and against all men. He went ahead whether others agreed with him or not, with his integrity as his only banner. He served nothing and no one. He lived for himself. And only by living for himself was he able to achieve the things which are the glory of mankind. Such is the nature of achievement. Man cannot survive except through his mind. He comes on earth unarmed. His brain is his only weapon. But the mind is an attribute of the individual. There is no such thing as a collective brain. The man who thinks must think and act on his own. The reasoning mind cannot work under any form of compulsion. It cannot be subordinated to the needs, opinions, or wishes of others. It is not an object of sacrifice.

The creator stands on his own judgment; the parasite follows the opinions of others.

The creator thinks; the parasite copies.

The creator produces; the parasite loots.

The creator’s concern is the conquest of nature; the parasite’s concern is the conquest of men.

The creator requires independence. He neither serves nor rules. He deals with men by free exchange and voluntary choice.

The parasite seeks power. He wants to bind all men together in common action and common slavery. He claims that man is only a tool for the use of others — that he must think as they think, act as they act, and live in selfless, joyless servitude to any need but his own.

Look at history: Everything we have, every great achievement has come from the independent work of some independent mind. Every horror and destruction came from attempts to force men into a herd of brainless, soulless robots — without personal rights, without person ambition, without will, hope, or dignity.

It is an ancient conflict. It has another name: “The individual against the collective.”

Our country, the noblest country in the history of men, was based on the principle of individualism, the principle of man’s “inalienable rights.” It was a country where a man was free to seek his own happiness, to gain and produce, not to give up and renounce; to prosper, not to starve; to achieve, not to plunder; to hold as his highest possession a sense of his personal value, and as his highest virtue his self-respect.

Look at the results. That is what the collectivists are now asking you to destroy, as much of the earth has been destroyed.

I am an architect. I know what is to come by the principle on which it is built. We are approaching a world in which I cannot permit myself to live. My ideas are my property. They were taken from me by force, by breach of contract. No appeal was left to me.

It was believed that my work belonged to others, to do with as they pleased. They had a claim upon me without my consent — that it was my duty to serve them without choice or reward.

Now you know why a dynamited Courtland. I designed Courtland. I made it possible. I destroyed it. I agreed to design it for the purpose of it seeing built as I wished. That was the price I set for my work. I was not paid. My building was disfigured at the whim of others who took all the benefits of my work and gave me nothing in return.

I came here to say that I do not recognize anyone’s right to one minute of my life, nor to any part of my energy, nor to any achievement of mine — no matter who makes the claim!

It had to be said: The world is perishing from an orgy of self-sacrificing. I came here to be heard in the name of every man of independence still left in the world. I wanted to state my terms. I do not care to work or live on any others.

My terms are: A man’s RIGHT to exist for his own sake.