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Letters to Elf…

April 14, 2009 Alice 14 comments

Dear Elf,

There is something that I have to tell you since last week. I wish we would have sat by that rivulet and seen the purple dusk but I guess our muddy humdrum lives aren’t allowing us to do so. The sky is thick with smoke and the brook has dried, leaving us all high and low at the same time. But it’s ok; for I know that the sun will again rise tomorrow and have a glorious dusk waiting for us. How optimistic, am I not?

You remember, those tiny bottles hanging in your house? Well, I was thinking about them on Sunday evening while having my staple dinner of wine and prawns. I think they are sort of cute. Remind me to take one of them with me next time when I come to visit you but promise me you will not get mad if I break them and hurt myself deliberately.

Those pebbles that hurt me while I was somersaulting in your poppy fields have left tiny scars over my face. Whenever I smile at myself in the mirror, I see tiny dimples dancing on my rosy cheeks. Thanks for pushing me off the cliff; I wouldn’t look this pretty and attractive otherwise.

That sunlight kissed windows weren’t that bad. All you need to do is just shut your eyes and the rays will cease to enter your soul. I guess, sometimes sunshine does burn your life away.

Ah, I forgot to mention that stairway to heaven. Yes, I agree that it did take me to heaven but I guess not for long because the sunbeams killed the glory in my head and had me burning all over in pain. But don’t you worry anymore, for the pain has ceased to exist in my heart and soul. I am as cold and as white as ever. We can climb those stairs again and probably stare at stars together and not face sunbeams all over.

Those chocolate muffins weren’t that bad either. They were a little burnt though. Tell Sandy who runs your bakery to go easy on the oven temperatures next time. Those cute buttercups can be made a little soft and pleasant. I can go and help him next time you decide to bake some blueberry muffins for your grandma.

Oh, do you remember that blue-eyed boy who crossed me in the elevators? Well, he winked at me before leaving. But I don’t want you to get mad at him and give him a black eye because men like him can not go beyond winking. Next time, be calm and tranquil and do exactly as I say for I might tell you to kill him and not just give him a black eye.

Love,
A

Raging Retrospection

March 23, 2009 Alice 19 comments

Pungent madness…

Sudden theories of anger…

Recluse of pain…

Inertia in thoughts…

Abrupt pockets of sunshine…

Dark shadows of soul…

Bigotry thoughts…

Screaming lies…

Sardonic laughter…

Derisive tears…

Glimmering smiles…

Soulful afterglow…

Lonely walks…

Sorry cries…

Willful psychosis…

Sparks of fire…

Raging retrospection…

Inherent truth…

Bruised blues…

Sweaty palms…

Anorexic feet…

Panging pain…

Crushed emotions…

Bittersweet moonlight…

Howling hormones…

Haunting melodies…

Crucifying past…

Surreal light…

Respect

March 7, 2009 Alice 12 comments

I looked for it, but I could not find it,
I called for it, but then I quit.
For days and nights I wished for its presence,
and waited in the dark, engulfed in silence.

I tried so hard to let it come,
even turned into a slave, for I could not run.
Why can’t they see that I am a human and must be treated like one too,
I have changed my life, looks, attitude, and still don’t know what to do.

I am no longer who I used to be,
for my heart is scratched and hate is all I can see.
My mind hurts from the pain I have lived with,
my eyes rain harsh tears that plead for death, and I am losing faith.

I begged for them to show me that they at least care,
but their hate, torment, and torture are all they can share.
My heart is bleeding, my mind dissolving, and my soul weeping.
And still, I have not received what I wish for I am still waiting.

My reflection looks back at me brutalized,
for it too has felt the torture of the world through my eyes.
Why is it that I have been chosen by all,
to be scorned, neglected, and wait for death’s call?

My dreams even show me in a terrible state,
for the rest of my life I know I just can’t wait.
My time is running out, and my spirit is dying.
So please, give it to me before I stop trying.

I can’t wait anymore for those around to show me,
that I can be respected, and loved for all to see.
I am human and have a soul,
one that should be loved and cared by all.

Kindle This Hearts Dying Flame…

February 16, 2009 Alice 19 comments

Wandering through the darkness
searching for a source of light
walking alone through this desolate land
a land that some call life
I need to find a fire
to kindle this hearts dying flame
someone to Search inside
someone who can stand to see the pain

Chorus: So save me from myself…
And I will give you all of me
Give me a little of yourself
And I will love you endlessly

Don’t be afraid of the shadows
I have been lost in it for so long
After awhile they’re comforting
After all the feeling is gone
Give to me your hand and lead me to the light
Take me from the darkness
Help me regain my sight

I know it’s a lot to ask
and I have not much to give
All I have is love
and the rest of this life to live

Chorus: So save me from myself…
And I will give you all of me
Give me a little of yourself
and I will love you endlessly

The Amateur God’s Dilemma…

February 12, 2009 Alice 17 comments

Pausing at the garden’s edge,
my shoulders bare and shining
I look upon my handiwork:

Evenly trimmed and primped rows
of soft, cultivated summer grass,
marred by sullen and yellowish
Clumps of abandoned and disowned turf.

I pause and gaze at the heaps,
wondering whether I should continue
my labor and rid the gardens of such refuse.

I think that these untidy piles of dead vegetation
will, in their jealousy, block their more fortunate brethren
from growth and slowly
both will degenerate into
sickly beige pools of rot.
But I am no gardener and, for my ignorance,
perhaps these unlucky corpses of grass blades,
who grew too far above the others,
will nourish their cannibal brothers
into smug verdancy.

I don’t know which and, besides,
I am very lazy.
So, I pause at the garden’s edge
and merely watch to see if the dead
want anything to do with the living.

The Dance of Death…

February 12, 2009 Alice 9 comments

Their pitch was harsh; their sound was weak,
A nest was hidden high.
The woods were full of creature-speak
Ignored by passersby…

A few were round, and some were slight,
Concealed among the trees,
By parents pausing in their flight,
Upon spring’s warming breeze…

A sparrow brave, petite and frail
Once perched with weary claw -
Was swept away by Nature’s gale
And snatched by prowler’s paw…

The kill so swift, his silenced call
A sacrifice for hatch;
And broken wing, to mark his fall,
Lay tattered in the thatch…

The clutch remained in warm domain,
Their flock reduced by one,
To face the harshness and the strain
Of lives they’ve just begun…

The seeds were sown, to take first flight
On wings of bated breath,
Albeit soon, with all their might
Descend the dance of death…